Qui-Gon: Who taught you to fight like that?
Obi-Wan: What do you mean?
Qui-Gon: Students in the Temple rarely attack so viciously. They learn to defend, to wear one another down. They conserve their strength. Yet you fought… like a very dangerous man. You left yourself open to attack time and again, and relied upon the other boy to take the defensive stance.

-Jedi Apprentice: The Rising Force



a jedi does not cling to the past.
and obi-wan kenobi knows, too, that to have lived his life without being master to anakin skywalker would have left him a different man. a lesser man

make me choose
clintbavton said: anakin skywalker or obi-wan kenobi


in heaven one day joly bursts through the door of their new musain and trips over himself to get to courfeyrac at which point he yells “it’s a boy, it’s a boy, and they named him after you!” and courf is so overwhelmed he can’t even respond

What about Feuilly taking his two free afternoons every week to spend a couple of hours in the vacant lot around the corner from his apartment–digging up the ground and picking up cans and broken class and potato chip bags–and putting a little garden in there? The squash he plants are a disappointment–two hills don’t come up at all and something eats the third before it produces flowers, but he does get a few marigolds coming up along one side. and even though every time he comes out [1/2]


[2/2] to work on it, somebody has thrown new trash there, he still likes being able to do some concrete work to make his neighborhood a little better. (Combeferre gives him some bulbs to plant there and Feuilly thinks they’re pretty but doesn’t realize until a year later that bulb flowers are perennial–and then he almost starts to cry when he realizes he’s left a mark in his neighborhood. People will see and enjoy those daffodils year after year, even long after Feuilly himself is gone.)

oh no…. just the though of him putting so much care in that little bit of land and making it look nice and grow things and nurture it until the land itself gives back to the citizen with flowers and vegetable and fruit (I bet he tries to tomatoes, too, because those are easy, and after some years (and a lot of encouragement) he manages to get it to form a community garden that the whole neighbourhood can participate in!



Feuilly didn’t notice the weight he carried around until he met Courfeyrac and felt light for the first time.  

There was a contagious sort of buoyancy to the talkative gentleman that lifted Feuilly from himself as easily as if he were driftwood borne on saltwater.  He never quite forgot the things that weighed him down, but they instantly became easier to bear in Courfeyrac’s presence, the way stones become easier to carry as you walk with them into the sea.  

And that was what Courfeyrac was, Feuilly decided.  A crystalline sea, simultaneously strong and pliant, whose laughter built and broke in waves.  Waves that, Feuilly knew, would slowly erode the heaviness within him, if he stayed by Courfeyrac’s side long enough.

Feuilly wasn’t sure if he deserved that, but he decided, watching laughter lines crinkle at the edges of Courfeyrac’s eyes, that he would try to, nonetheless.  He would try to swim in this sweetness for as long as he could, and he would try, with all his might, not to drag them both down.


I was rewatching TPM (for reasons) and I just had an absolute revelation at Qui Gon’s death scene. 

I always hated that scene because it felt so heartless- here is a Jedi master who obviously is very close to his padawan, yet he doesn’t use his dying breath to say goodbye, to give any words of encouragement, or to ease Obi Wan’s pain. All he offers is a burden, asking his apprentice to take on his crusade, after telling him in front of the Council that he was ready to brush him aside for that same cause. It just felt wrong and poorly written.

And on this, my four trillionth viewing, it has finally dawned on me- Qui Gon wasn’t talking about Anakin at all. He’s talking about Obi Wan. He says “Promise me you will train the boy”- because Qui Gon, more than anyone else, knows what training a padawan truly means. He knows how deeply Obi Wan will feel this loss. He understands what it means to despair and to have a small, precocious person give hope for the future. He doesn’t ask Obi Wan to promise that Anakin will be trained, he purposely sets this task on his apprentice because he knows it is what will allow him to move past his grief. He also knows that Obi Wan was meant for something great. He understands that the Chosen One needs to be placed in the care of the person who is the most capable, and there could be no greater compliment or sign of trust than to give Obi Wan this charge. Qui Gon knows that training Anakin will allow both The Chosen One and his young master to become the Jedi they were meant to be.

So, really, Qui Gon wasn’t putting duty before attachment. He was using his last breath to ensure that Obi Wan became everything Qui Gon had always known he could, through the only means available to him.


*turns off dead poets society immediately after Neil’s play is over*
What a lovely ending 🙂