I started thinking absently about Steve Rogers’ jogging route during my run today and then i couldn’t STOP thinking about it because there’s literally NO WAY it makes sense unless you accept that he is specifically fucking up his entire morning routine to get another look at the cute boy he clocked on his run. I got home and started to make a post about it but it was like
so you’re just going to have to trust me
Enough people asked me to Get Into This that, you know what, fine. Let’s get into it. Under the cut please enjoy my doctoral dissertation, There Is No Carol In HR, or Captain America Is a Big Ol’ Creep and I Can Prove It with Maps.
READ THE WHOLE THING IT’S SO BEAUTIFUL I’M CRYING
Oh wow. I haven’t thought about this story in a LONG time. ^_^ (For those interested, it’s explicit Jesus/Judas and Judas/Mary JCS fic. So, you know… read at your own risk. ^_~)
Answers behind the cut.
(And if anyone else would like to send me questions, here they are! ^_^)
1: What inspired you to write the fic this way?
The beginning of my writing process is always that I get a line stuck in my head. Usually it’s the opening line to the story. The style of the story (POV/tense/general language/etc.) usually forms around it. In the case of this story, the first line that popped into my head was this:
It is a terrible thing, to know when you are a child the exact date and time and place you are to die.
…and that really affected the way the story took shape. Also that I was telling the story from Jesus’ POV – it felt like there needed to be a bit of weight to the language that I don’t always use.
4: What’s your favorite line of dialogue?
Heh. I just realized that there IS no dialogue in this story until about 2/3 of the way through the first part. I feel like that may be a common theme for me. ;D
Anyway, Without getting obsessive about re-reading the whole story, I’ve always loved this bit of Mary’s dialogue:
Before I could give chase, however, a delicate hand alighted on my
arm and arrested my movement. Mary. Of course she had witnessed
everything. After months of being so careful not to show preferential
treatment to one or the other of them, that she should have witnessed
that calculated cruelty on my part was insult added to the injury I had
already done Judas. It was unforgivable. I opened my mouth to speak,
to try to explain this all away, but Mary raised her other hand and
covered my lips, shook her head. Her beautiful, dark eyes were so sad
as she said, “No. Don’t explain. Even you could not have words good
enough to explain what I just saw.”
Mary looked off into the
distance and when she looked back… there was disappointment in her
eyes. She said, “Jesus… you are wise, that is true, but it is an
otherworldly wisdom. You are not wise in the ways of this world as I am
– as Judas is. It makes you precious to us both, to all of those who
follow you, but it means that you often do not see the world for what it
is. Judas, of us all, tries the most to protect you from the world’s
cruel reality. So, it is doubly cruel that when he is unsuccessful and
you are hurt, that you turn and lash out at the very hand which tried to
protect you. Perhaps you should take this opportunity to think on why
that is.” She straightened, eyes determined, “I will go after Judas.
For now, you have forfeited that right.” She then gathered her skirts
and took off running, leaving me to ponder both how I could have made
such a terrible blunder… and how Mary had come to care so for Judas
that she would step between us to defend him.
I still love this speech of Mary’s, especially because the reason Jesus and Judas had fought to begin with was because of Mary and Mary was the one who stepped in to defend Judas. ^_^
6: What makes this fic special or different from all your other fics?
I’m not so sure anything makes it special? But I mean… it’s JCS, but at the core it’s Bible porn. Written from Jesus’ POV. In first person. I’m not sure I’d have had the guts to write that if I’d thought too hard about what I was doing. XD Also, there is het sex involved, which is not something I normally write. ^_~
(Although, HAHAHAHA, “Why is the fic different from all other fic?” is very similar wording to the Four Questions and this canon takes place over Passover and that’s HILARIOUS. XD)
10: Why did you choose this pairing for this particular story?
Oh, that was ALL on the actors playing the characters. I don’t think I’d have shipped them in these configurations if it hadn’t been for the way the actors portrayed them and, let’s face it, for the relationships between the actors themselves.
13: What music did you listen to, if any, to get in the mood for writing this story? Or if you didn’t listen to anything, what do you think readers should listen to to accompany us while reading?
I don’t usually listen to music while writing OR reading. I find it way too distracting, even if it’s just instrumental. So I actually don’t know? Maybe a bootleg of the 2012 JCS cast if you can find one? ^_~
Started answering your questions @enechelon, and ended up rereading half the story and WHOOPS it’s after 5 and I’m late for dinner. XD So, I will get to the rest when I get back. ^_^ Thanks, though! I forgot how much I loved that story! ;D
If anyone else wants to send any questions while I’m at dinner… please do and here they are! ^_^
The cast and onstage band of Broadway’s Bright Star. Photos by Nick Stokes.
My uncle just called from downstairs to ask if I’m ready to start shoveling and i’m not I’m not I’m not. *whine whine whine* We just got RID of this shit. *sobs softly*
The sun came out in NJ an hour or so ago and it’s melting the snow pretty rapidly (though looks like we got an inch less than you maybe). Hopefully it’s headed your way soon!
We’ve got sun now, too! 😀 I finally caved to the shoveling for that exact reason, though. Because it was starting to melt just enough to become really heavy. 😛 So I went out and shoveled the paths and the driveway and dug out the cars before it could get too bad. And this way the sun can do the rest for me. ^_^
…of course, I hear we get to do it all again next Wednesday, too. 😛
Ewan McGregor in Long Way Round