I was going to sit down and do some writing today.  Then my mom called and got me all stressed out about a stupid thing because my response (that I didn’t know if I could do the thing she wanted me to do because I’d never done it before and have never given her any indication that it is a Thing I Do) stressed HER out and that’s clearly ALL MY FAULT because I Always Do That. 

And I opened the fic file anyway (it was FYFM chapter 19, BTW) and reread what I wrote last night and I’m sitting here thinking, “OMFG THAT IS SO OOC, WTF IS WRONG WITH ME, WHY DID I THINK THAT WAS OK TO WRITE?” and then I realized that it ISN’T OOC for how I’ve been writing these characters for the whole damned FIC, it’s just that THIS WAS AN E/R PART AND REQUITED E/R JUST READS AS SO OOC TO ME NOW AND HOW AM I EVER GOING TO FINISH THIS FIC IF I CAN’T GET MY HEAD AROUND E/R ANYMORE?

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