Here we go again…

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…an attempt at a to-do list.  *wince*

• Adulting stuff
• Find out wtf is taking so long with hearing back about my insurance appeal.  IT’S BEEN FIVE MONTHS.  UGH.  At least acknowledge that I sent it, douchebags.
• Emailed my case manager.
  
• Email about tea tins
• Email about shoes.
• Send pay stubs to insurance company.
• Work stuff
• NOTHING.  GLORY FUCKING HALLELUJAH.
• School stuff (…and here we go :P)
• Email back that one prof to thank her for agreeing to be on my dissertation committee.
• Stat
• Write abstract for paper
• Finish discussion section for paper
• Add procedures to research design assignment and submit it.
• Qual
• Write memo 14




• Write memo 15
• Write 1st article review
• Write research proposal
• Write 2nd article review
• Write research paper
• CRY A WHOLE LOT BECAUSE THERE’S NO WAY IN FUCK THAT’S HAPPENING BY TOMORROW.

Well… got the two memos done?  *headdesk*

Of course, now I’m starting to feel all shaky and twitchy and nauseous and just… not good.  I tried making some tea to calm me down, but I think the caffeine is actually making it worse for a change which NEVER HAPPENS.

I emailed the professor to tell her that I did the two memos and she’ll probably get my first article review by tomorrow and the rest by next week, so that should have decreased my anxiety, but I JUST WANT THIS DONE.  I WANT IT DONE AND I’M SO STRESSED OUT OVER IT AND IF I TAKE A BREAK NOW I WILL NEVER GET BACK TO IT AND–

*deep breath*  This is not helping.

Indulging the anxiety spiral NEVER helps.

I’m going to go feed my cat dinner and sit with him for a few minutes and hope that helps.  Then I’m going to come back and try my hand at this fucking article review again.  The worst thing that will happen is I don’t get it done tonight.  And that’s not the end of the world.  I’m OK.