Today was our annual family bbq. As usual, I’m exhausted but I had SO MUCH FUN. ^_____^ I really do enjoy my family. ^_^

And now I should maybe go to bed because I have to be somewhere in 9 ½ hours. Oops! ^_^

Today was a pretty good day, so I thought a “good day photoset” was in order.  ^_^

First three pictures: my new soothing bowl, some brewing earl grey midnight tea, and the newly cleansed clear quartz chips that will go in the soothing bowl.

Middle pictures: Gabriel being a cutey.  ^_^  Because he is.

Bottom three pictures: MY GARDEN.  LOOK HOW WELL EVERYTHING’S GROWING!!  😀  My first zucchini should be ready in a few days and I’ve been eating the chives for over a week.  ^_^  SO EXCITED.

Other things that were good behind the cut:

So, my therapist is out on medical leave for back surgery and her friend/mentor is taking over most of her cases while she’s gone.  Anyway, I was REALLY REALLY nervous about that.  But you know what?  I REALLY really like her.  In fact, I hate to say it, because I really do love my therapist, but I’m almost tempted to say that D. is a better fit for me.  We have the same energy in a way?  That kind of high-strung, excitable almost-nervous energy?  And combining me with another person like that usually means SHIT GETS DONE.  So… I’m tentatively hopeful?  Which would feel like a major betrayal, but my therapist basically already said, “If you like working with her and want to stay with her, THAT’S OK.”  So… I guess we’ll see?  -.-;;;  Anyway, it’s at least two months too early for that particular worry, so I’m going to not focus on it for now.

Other things that are cool: I finally stopped in at the yoga studio and got information on classes with an eye towards starting yoga again.  Because I am so stiff and in so much general muscle pain because of all my lost flexibility and something has to give and I’d rather it not be my back.  -.-;;;  Anyway, I really liked the studio and the receptionist was SUPER nice and just kind of left me with this feeling that this was the right move?  Which is good because I think I needed that level of encouragement.  Because on some level, as the new therapist smacked it right on the head, I don’t think I deserve to feel better.  So I don’t do the things that I know will make me feel better.  Well, FUCK THAT.  I WANT TO FEEL BETTER.  So.  Gonna try?  -.-;;;

And last but not least, my soothing bowl.  LET ME TELL YOU ABOUT THIS BECAUSE IT IS COOL.  It’s exactly what it sounds like – a bowl meant for soothing you.  Here’s a picture.  It’s a bowl with some kind of polished stone/crystal chips inside it.  Nothing fancy.  Anyway, the idea is that when you’re stressed, you run your fingers through the chips and pick them up and let them sift through your fingers.  And I saw the one they had in the window and was kind of like… huh.  That sounds interesting.  So I did as instructed and just… OMG.  As a sensory thing is was SO SATISFYING AND SOOTHING.  It was everything I love about running my hands through dry sand without the roughness of the sand or the granules getting stuck in the creases of my fingers.  So with that in mind, I bought a larger ceramic bowl the color of sand fading into the turquoise ocean in the bottom.  And when it came time to pick a crystal, well… I know nothing about crystals.  O_o;;;  So I just go with my gut of which one I think feels right.  And I picked clear quartz.  This is the blurb from the store about it:

Crystal Quartz is known as the “master healer” and will amplify energy and thought, as well as the effect of other crystals.  It absorbs, stores, releases and regulates energy.  Clear Quartz draws off negative energy of all kinds, neutralizing background electromagnetic radiation.  It balances and revitalizes the physical, mental, emotional and spiritual planes and acts as a deep soul cleanser, connecting the physical dimension with the mind.  Clear quartz enhances psychic abilities.  It aids concentration and unlocks memory while it stimulates the immune system and brings the body into balance.

Sounds like just what the doctor ordered for someone with anxiety, ADHD, a wealth of negativity, and chronic pain, doesn’t it?  O_o;;;  GOOD JOB, SUBCONSCIOUS.

Anyway, I cleansed two of the bags of crystal chips earlier and they’re now drying in the window, so hopefully they’ll be dry enough for the bowl by tomorrow.  ^_^

So, yeah.  That’s what’s going on with me.  Not too shabby for once, huh?  ^_^

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OK!  Critical review is done!  😀  Now, other than writing a few more sections for the lit review I just handed in (because my professor and I had a miscommunication snafu) I AM ALL CAUGHT UP ON ALL MY WORK AND I’M SO HAPPY I COULD CRY.  XD

And actually, apart from the snafu of how many sections she wanted an what constituted a section, she said that my lit review was going really well until it cut short.  So.  That’s not nothing.  ^_^  Especially because she’s kind of blunt with her feedback and apparently has made a few students cry.  O_o;;;  Not on purpose, but because she’s just… blunt.  If something’s wrong, she’ll tell you it’s wrong.  (And honestly, I’ve got a pretty thin skin usually, but prepped by her telling us that it’s not personal, it’s just how she gives feedback, her feedback… didn’t seem cruel to me or anything?  I mean, it really didn’t.  Then again, that might have just been because I was doing a good job.  IDK.  -.-;;;)

ANYWAY, the point is that for the first time in forever, I FEEL LIKE I CAN BREATHE and it’s wonderful.  ^_________^

Anyway.  I’m meeting @dreamer-wisher-liar to go see a show in a few hours, so I should probably shower and get dressed now.  ^_^  I hope you’re all having a great day and that you have a great weekend and those three languishing prompts will be coming soon, I PROMISE.  ^_____^

Later!

Aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah~~~~~~~!!  Today was such a lovely day!  ^_^  Seriously.  It really was.  First of all, I only had to sub until noon, because that was her last class of the day.  So I got out nice and early.  Second, I was subbing for a science class, which meant I felt moderately competent, which is always a refreshing change.  ^_^  Third, it was Spirit Week and it was PAJAMA DAY, so I got to wear pajamas all day and apparently I look really cute in flannel plaid pants because I kept getting compliments?  Even once I’d left school to go about the rest of my day?  So, that was fun.  ^_^

Anyway, then I got to go home and chill for a few hours which was sorely needed.  Then I had class and that was fun, too.  SO much less stressful than the other classes I took this year, OMFG.

Then I had rehearsal for chorale.  So, I don’t know if I mentioned, but I DID get a solo for this concert.  It’s a little bitty solo.  Like… 2 measures.  BUT, after that, there’s a quartet.  And OMFG, WE HAVE SUCH A GOOD LITTLE QUARTET AND WE SOUND AMAZING TOGETHER AND I FORGOT HOW MUCH I LOVE SINGING IN SMALL GROUPS LIKE THAT AND I’M SO PUMPED FOR THIS, NOW.  XDDDD

(Side note: One of the women singing one of the other four solos there is someone whose voice I just LOVE.  Like, whenever I lose out on a solo to her I smile and shrug, “Yep, that’s fair.  Totally get you.  Can’t wait to hear her sing it.  ^______^”  Like, no jealousy at all on my part because I just LOVE HER VOICE that much.  So, anyway, we’re standing in order and she’s solo 1 and I’m solo 2 and this made me VERY happy because then I get to sing next to her for the whole thing.  ^______^  ANYWAY, later that night, the four of us were gushing over how awesome we all sounded together and she leaned over to me and said, “And, OMG, I LOVE SINGING NEXT TO YOU!!!” and I immediately gushed and beamed back, but seriously, that was so nice to hear?  Because I admire her so much and love singing near her, too, and it’s just really cool to hear that she feels the same about me.  ^______^  So.  There it is.)

Anyway, the point is that I had a really good day, and I hope the rest of you had good days and I am SO pumped for this concert!  XD

And tomorrow, I FINALLY get to see Civil War, so that’s cool, too.  ^_^