any time i feel like im getting Too Happy like my life is too stress free or something cause my homework is done and my skin is moderately clear i just think about “You were my brother, Anakin. I loved you.” and it brings me right back to normal
CAN WE TALK ABOUT THIS
OBI WAN DESPERATELY TRYING TO TELL HIMSELF IT’S NOT ANAKIN ANYMORE
BECAUSE THAT’S THE ONLY WAY HE CAN FIGHT WITHOUT COMPLETELY BREAKING DOWN AND
STILL HE CANT KILL HIM
FUCKING 20 YEARS LATER HE STILL CANT KILL HIM
AND ANAKIN ACTIVELY DECIDES TO HATE OBI WAN IN THE PRESENT NO SPEAKING OF PAST RELATIONSHIPS OR HOW MUYCH HE LOVED OBI WAN AND LOOKED UP TO HIM AND IM SO FUCKIN
okay but consider this YEAH but DEEP DOWN
anakin still lived in vader
but im not sure obi wan still lived in ben
or else i dont think ben would have given up during his fight with vader on the deathstar
AND WE KNOW anakin still lived in vader cause he saves luke later
plus i just realized it could have two meanings
i loved you. as in i no longer love you because i can no longer recognize the man i loved. anakin ceased to exist.
i loved you. as in i’ve failed you and i cannot go on any longer and i’ll rip out the pieces of my soul that were yours rather than kill you. obi-wan ceased to exist.
obi-wan was dissociating hard in that moment to try and distance himself from the pain of losing someone he raised and taught and bonded with from a young child like fucking hell obi-wan you didn’t deserve this shit
I’m willing to wait for it.