I had every intention of coming home and sitting down and writing things.  Specifically all the lovely prompts that you guys just sent me as well as the two I had left from the last round (don’t worry @kingesstropolis and @reysaglass, I haven’t forgotten yours!)… but yeah.  That anxiety crash kind of all happened at once and my brain just went, “…uh uh.”  So… tomorrow.  I WILL CATCH UP ON THESE PROMPTS TOMORROW.  -.-;;;

…and maybe write my thing for rare pair.  -.-;;;

*whimper*  OMG, I don’t know what the fuck I did to myself yesterday, but EVERY MUSCLE GROUP ACHES.  Like, things ache so much my hands are trembling and making it hard to type.  D:

And my head aches and my ears ache and my face aches because FUCK GLASSES, THAT’S WHY, and my contacts are so beyond their last legs that I can barely wear them for 6 hours before they dry out and give me trouble and the new pairs I ordered won’t be in until tomorrow, so I’m stuck in my glasses for a while, but EVERYTHING ACHES.

UGH.

I think this is maybe a cue that I should just take off my glasses and bury my nose in a book for the day, even though I have a paper to write and fic to write.  *sigh*

But damn it, I HURT.  And I hurt worse when I get up.  And there’s a definite storm brewing, so that’s not helping.  UGHHHHHHH.  Stupid body.

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OK, nope.  I take back the part about feeling better.

Everything is making me jump out of my skin and I still feel queasy.  And it’s almost 11 and I’m not even TIRED and I just have this sinking feeling that I’ll be tossing and turning all night and end up feeling even worse tomorrow.

FUck. EVERYTHING.

*headdesk*

as a side note: KIDS.  IF YOU EMAIL YOUR P.ROFESSORS OVER THE SUMMER AND THEY ACTUALLY EMAIL YOU BACK WITHIN 12 HOURS?  FUCKING RESPOND TO ACKNOWLEDGE YOU GOT THEIR ANSWER.  PLEASE, FOR THE LOVE OF ALL THAT’S HOLY.  WE SIT HERE AND STEW IN OUR A.NXIETY OVER YOUR EXPECTATIONS JUST AS MUCH AS YOU DO OVER OURS.

that is all. thank you.

i’m having a really shit night

something’s just… not right in my head right now

i’m a ridiculous ball of depressive anxiety and i’m hungry and queasy at the same time and i can’t stand being in my house because i can’t fucking sit still but there’s nowhere to go and nothing to do and no one to do it with and everything hurts in this vague and annoying way that i can’t really do anything about

*sigh*  i wish i could just go to sleep and have a mulligan on this whole fucking shithole of a day

Guess who officially has a working syllabus for the course she’s teaching this summer and just shipped it off to her boss for vetting?

That’s right!  ME!  XD

…holy cow, I look pale and tired, though.  O_o;;;  I think I’m gonna go snuggle with my cat and read.  That fixes everything.  ^_^  Hope you’ve all be well and sorry my queue’s been lacking in Les Mis today.  -.-;;;  I’ll fix that for tomorrow.

OK!  Critical review is done!  😀  Now, other than writing a few more sections for the lit review I just handed in (because my professor and I had a miscommunication snafu) I AM ALL CAUGHT UP ON ALL MY WORK AND I’M SO HAPPY I COULD CRY.  XD

And actually, apart from the snafu of how many sections she wanted an what constituted a section, she said that my lit review was going really well until it cut short.  So.  That’s not nothing.  ^_^  Especially because she’s kind of blunt with her feedback and apparently has made a few students cry.  O_o;;;  Not on purpose, but because she’s just… blunt.  If something’s wrong, she’ll tell you it’s wrong.  (And honestly, I’ve got a pretty thin skin usually, but prepped by her telling us that it’s not personal, it’s just how she gives feedback, her feedback… didn’t seem cruel to me or anything?  I mean, it really didn’t.  Then again, that might have just been because I was doing a good job.  IDK.  -.-;;;)

ANYWAY, the point is that for the first time in forever, I FEEL LIKE I CAN BREATHE and it’s wonderful.  ^_________^

Anyway.  I’m meeting @dreamer-wisher-liar to go see a show in a few hours, so I should probably shower and get dressed now.  ^_^  I hope you’re all having a great day and that you have a great weekend and those three languishing prompts will be coming soon, I PROMISE.  ^_____^

Later!